Wednesday, October 15, 2008 @11:58 AM
As quoted from a friend's blog, "
things are getting messier......."
Yes, indeed. My heart feels like it has gone for a rollercoaster ride and I can't stop the vertigo and nauseous feeling anymore. It hurts so badly...so much that I really can't concentrate on anything. Throwing myself into work doesn't work. The after-effects are still there. I feel so empty inside, like I have given so much of myself away until I have nothing left. I guess since there's nothing left inside, I should just slowly let it go and let it be. If
he really cared and truly loved me,
he wouldn't have let me carry on giving so much so that it really hurts now.
It's the second time already. Once bitten, twice shy. I guess it's really up to me now. I just want to get out of the mess that
he has created for
himself and some other friends around
him. I don't want any part of this shitload. I don't want any more heartaches. I don't want to cry anymore in the middle of the night, wondering why...
So, it's really goodbye, my love. I've finally given up on myself. I've finally given up on you. You are my Mr. Perfect but if you just don' t want to work on "us", then I guess I shouldn't hold on anymore. It's pointless.