Sunday, October 26, 2008 @9:46 PM
Today, I was in church for mass. Actually, I didn't feel like attending as I had so much work to finish and was under a lot of pressure to clear it up. But, thankfully, I did attend mass because after the mass ended, I can't explain why but somehow, I was a lot less troubled and my head felt so much clearer and lighter. Right now, I am supposed to be clearing my work and I did manage to clear my work at a relatively faster pace than the last few days. (: I only have a small section of the case study for Managerial Decision Making left to finish up and after that, I will be able to start on the journal for Sociology of Economic Life. Feeling a lot more relieved now that so much of my work has been cleared.
During the sermon, I usually would not be listening and be nodding off to sleep. But, today, I was attentive. The priest was talking about what love is. He said that the concept of love has been portrayed by the media to be overly romanticized. Love is seen as an emotion that stirs one sensually and sexually. However, the statement that he made (which is also the theme of his entire sermon) really got through to me: "Love is not only an emotion but also a decision." It was as if God himself was giving me an answer to why I have been doing what I have done for the past half of the year. We don't love for the sake of feeling romantic but we
choose to love. The priest also mentioned that choosing to love someone entails a lot of sacrifice and that it will be a very harsh road to walk. Sometimes, we choose to love someone who does not treat us as well and that is very tough for anyone to bear. He also mentioned about love and how forgiveness is part of this great love that we are capable of, simply because we are made in God's image. When he said this, my heart totally poured open and I felt like for once, someone finally understood how I felt.
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Now, I finally can give you a proper answer to the question that you have been asking me. Why do I still love you even after all that has happened and after all this while? It is because I chose to love you from the very start and I will NEVER stop loving you. What about you? What is your choice?