Tuesday, December 30, 2008 @12:05 AM
Feeling rather pleased with myself now. Cleared a wee bit of packing and cleaning today. I even bought the present for a friend's baby shower and self-indulged in buying a loofah sponge to remove dead skin cells from my legs. Whoopee! (:
From now on, I'm going to concentrate on loving myself because I have not done that in years. Was previously too busy caring about other people so it's time to do myself some justice.
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Even though you said you wanted to maintain a friendship, I really don't see it working out. You're hardly making any effort on your part. It's always me who initiates every damn thing; the phone calls, the smses, the msn messages, the meetups, the going-outs and every other little thing. I know you still care but I really do not feel like you bother about me.
That's why on Boxing Day, I told myself that no matter what your response was, I am going to give up on you and live life for myself. If you really do care about or love me, you will have to work to build the relationship back because I'm not going to bother anymore. It really doesn't make sense for me to do all the dirty work for you while you sit back, relax and enjoy the company.
Besides, you seem a lot happier without me in your life... So, why should I bother to try to do something that makes me feel so unhappy and unappreciated? I don't think you need me by your side anyway, not anymore. Now, you just probably want someone else.